Australia
That’s where I’m going tomorrow! Starting anew. I’ve stayed in Penang my entire life, so I guess I’ll be experiencing how it feels to move to another country. All those times I wondered why kids who move a lot get emotional and stuff, guess I’ll understand them soon enough.
At the moment I’m packing in last minute things, so I don’t really have time to feel sad. In fact I don’t really have any feelings about this since I’m so occupied. Which reminds me, I used to ask friends about their feelings before they leave for another country, and it’s so funny and incomprehensible to me why they would say they ‘had no feeling’. Finally I get it! 
Every time I start anew somewhere, whether high school or college, I’d think about how I wanna change myself and how this would be the perfect chance. But really I still stay the same. I only found myself changing by learning from the new experiences I go through. So yesterday I was thinking about the whole ’starting a new life’ thing again, this time in Australia. I was trying to think of something I wanted to change about myself, beginning from this month. But I couldn’t think of anything! I keep telling myself this is the chance to change! Don’t waste it! But really nothing came to my mind. I dunno.
Actually the reason why I’m doing this is because I’m such a shy person. If wearing a dress out of the blue here in Malaysia (after not wearing one since I was 11) would probably cause everyone to notice, stare, comment, etc. then I’d rather not start wearing one even if I really wanted to! That’s why I always appreciate opportunities to start fresh. But now I can’t think of any! And I feel there should be something to change. Maybe smile a bit more, be a bit less cold in person, talk a bit louder so others can hear me and not bully me, finally wear skirts/dresses after all those tomboyish years (not that I have any to wear)… I don’t know. Friends, if you can think of anything positive to improve on, let me know!
In the mean time, I gotta get ready for Australia!
